Twilight Zone 2022

Pruneface

These are the “twilight years.” This is the “twilight zone.” A “gut feeling” has prognosticated that 72 years of age will be the optimistic upper limit for the “good years.” Subsequently, the body will degenerate much quicker than any compensation offered by gym workouts. Anecdotal observations confirm the latter.

The visage is already betraying any manner of subterfuge. Age can easily be ascertained just by perusing the “pruneface.” Hence, the futility of the “immortality project” to maintain a younger appearance. The geriatric body is simply preparing for death.

There are no regrets about the past. Many years were devoted to assimilation into mainstream society. There was moderate success, but nothing noteworthy. Unfortunately, nothing about mainstream society seemed “right,” whether involving wage slavery, friendships, personal philosophy, and so forth. There was no way to genuinely “fit in” without feeling like some kind of fraud. In the end (now), the role of outcast, pariah, and misanthrope was the option accepted.

There once was some apparently fake desire to seek marriage and establish a family. However, the true self overrode such foolishness. No long-term relationship with the other gender has been possible. As stated in the old “blog” (and, possibly, the legacy journal), the concepts of romance, courting, and marriage are human constructs of the failed “civilization” paradigm. The same applies to religion and religious beliefs.

In addition, there has been no personal desire to produce offspring. There are quite a few reasons that were cited in the legacy chronicles, but the most relevant reason is that there is no justification to the birthing of offspring who must eventually face old age and death in horror.

Since the aforementioned topics have been discussed many moons ago, there is no need to further belabor any of the points. One nebulous area, however, has been hovering in the consciousness for a while.

In the old “blog,” the series of personal research projects at the library were chronicled, which included the shaky foundation of the Yahweh triad (Judaism, Islam, and Pauline-Christianity) and the fallacy of deities. The science readings in the areas of quantum physics, astronomy, cosmology, anthropology, and so forth attested to the latter conclusions as well as offered evolution as the only possible explanation for the sequence of life on this planet.

Creationism

As a former “creationist,” those findings dealt a real blow to the psyche. Obviously, nihilism was a tragic repercussion as any hope for “eternal life” proved foolish. The universe conceptually became a cold and unfriendly place. Accepting evolution as the progression to all biological species and “spontaneous generation” as the actual origin of life was very difficult. In fact, “faith” was required, much like with religious beliefs.

Now at age 67 years, there is still some discomfort with the scientific origin and progression of life. The center of the controversy just happens to fall upon reproduction. Take animals (of which chimpo sapiens are included), for example. Mammals reproduce when an egg is successful impregnated by sperm. Both the egg and sperm are single cell entities, each containing the hereditary data (DNA) of the respective parent.

Reproduction

When both parents’ DNA combine, the process of reproduction begins. From just two single cells, an entire living creature is formed. The DNA structure itself is actually quite long and contains myriad base pairs. Yet, it is almost scientifically and statistically inconceivable that the DNA has complete instructions to “build” a mammalian species offspring. Look at the complexity of the human body, for example. How is that even possible?

This “chink in the armor” has been quite unsettling. The same goes for the physics of atomic and subatomic structures as well as quantum physics. Atoms are almost entirely composed of space. Material reality is only created by the electromagnetic bonding of atoms. Essentially, everything is made of mostly nothing. Then, life is somehow formed from that same nothing.

“Big Bang”

Clearly, the entire universe follows a complex set of laws. Where did these laws originate? Then, there’s the matter of the time before the “Big Bang” … well, time actually didn’t exist. The entire universe was compressed into a very tiny volume the size of a soccer ball. What can even explain such a phenomenon no less the reason for it?

Clearly, there is a “guiding force,” not necessarily a deity or other entity. Perhaps it is an “intelligence” that is outside the boundaries or dimensions of the universe. Whatever it is, it must exist. Otherwise, nothing about reality makes sense. How can anyone ponder the latter without going insane?

Miscellany: Notes could easily be mummified at this point. The foregoing discussion is really all that was pressing insofar as personal contemplation is concerned … well, at least during the “twilight years.” All other topics are superfluous.

Postscript: Alex Jones of InfoWars recently sent a video plea to “Orange Bad Man” (OBM) requesting that the latter denounce the “vaccine.” According to Jones, OBM refused and continues to shill the bioweapon “gene therapy.” As previously stated in Notes, OBM is fully compromised. The reason? Refer to the Notes post, “Orange Hoax Redux.”