Breakdown

Today was supposed to be the big day ... the purchase of the Ford® Transit cargo van. At the last minute, an excuse was forwarded to postpone the transaction. After months of planning, what went wrong?

Months of torture at the “old folks home” in Waikiki because of an alleged scam perpetrated by the on-site management. The realization that apathy and corruption are rampant to the point that victims of any kind of misdeed are helpless. Then, witnessing the physical and mental decline of moms in just a few short months. That’s probably “what broke the camel’s back.”

Oh, there are other personal issues as well. However, the situation with moms was the “last straw.” Just two weeks ago, the usual Hawai’i Kai visit went smoothly. Moms needed assistance, but eating lunch and going shopping was nothing out of the ordinary. Now, that’s completely over. There can be no doubt that the head injuries from the last fall were not superficial. Granted, moms’ recovery time is a lot longer, usually a month. However, there’s no denying that moms decline is accelerating. There is now some concern that moms may not last the year.

Everything is “coming to a head” simultaneously. The adverse events have taken a toll on the psyche. The complete realization and ramifications of moms’ plight ate now coming into focus. Thus, the entire mental burden has become overbearing. Add in the struggle with personal mortality and the result is an impending mental breakdown.

Daily functioning and decisions have been impaired. Numbness and extreme confusion have already set in. Only “automatic pilot” has prevented a total catatonic stupor from occurring. That’s the pathetic state-of-affairs right now.