Denial

The formerly-homeless buddy (FHB) still lives in relative squalor, although he lives in a State-subsidized senior citizen rental unit in Waialua. He "pinches pennies" for no apparent reason. His safe deposit box is full of cash. He still has the storage rental unit. He now has to store cash in a plastic container there. FHB probably has about $90,000 in cash stashed away, since he apparently did not purchase another house in Vietnam. The cash, of course, is from his SSI disability benefits.

FHB has also been approved for SNAP food subsidy, which he doesn't really need. He has obtained a "free" flip-phone and "free" wireless service from an undetermined homeless agency. The list of FHB's "penny pinching" activities is endless. There's just no sense behind his actions.

FHB has serious health issues, as detailed in the "blog." He is on medication for life, however long that may be. Yet, he spends an inordinate amount of time and effort to hoard cash. Is he in denial of death? Perhaps he will save $1million by age 80 years, if he is still alive. What will happen to all that money? Was the sacrifice worth it? What happens to all his stashed cash if he drops dead right now?

Formerly-Homeless Buddy Revisited

The formerly-homeless buddy (FHB) as a friend, not just an acquaintance ... seems far-fetched. Yet, the latter statement is probably true. FHB has asked for a few favors, which were granted. The acquaintanceship appeared to be one-way.

Yet, as it turns out, FHB had been sharing his most beloved welfare fraud plan all along. Every detail was articulated for future emulation. Homeless survival tips were also freely given. For someone who is down-and-out, the package of FHB's knowledge would be priceless.

Even now, FHB is offering help to his friend such that the latter would be able to secure affordable housing. The latest shortcut is the same plan presented by Scotty (see previous footnote). There really is only one way to secure affordable housing, that is, through homeless shelter case workers. Otherwise, the process will take longer than five years in the wait list queue.

Judging FHB concerning his means to obtain his ends is not really of any concern except for FHB himself. The merits of his friendship have to be based on his personal interactions. Given that, he seems to have proven himself worthy.

Ugly Old Skank

There's no other way to describe a 70-ish "old bag" who has run out of denials for its (only polite pronoun available) upcoming death. The skank dresses provocatively, which only serves to make bystanders ill. Who could stand to see a sagging ass peeking out of shorts that are too small? Who wants to be accosted by the sight of extreme thigh cellulite? Of, how can anyone not gag at seeing caked-on makeup that only a mortuary undertaker would appreciate? And then, there's the bleached blonde hair? Great to "deliver street pizza"? Yeah.

Ugly Ho’

Modern senior citizens are plagued with longevity. They must live longer in decrepit states than their predecessors. Thus, they must rely on myriad medications for physical and mental ailments. The drug "soup" can and does cause side effects as can plainly be exemplified by the ugly old skank. Anxiolitics, anti-depressants, anti-psychotics, and analgesics are common prescriptions amongst senior citizens, along with self-medication (e.g., cheap booze). Missing a dose of prescription drugs can cause erratic and irrational behavior.

The ugly old skank is probably cooking its brain with various medications. Unfortunately, drugs can barely contain the mind. Given enough time, the mind will break free and "all hell will break loose." Then, someone will have to "put down" the ugly old skank like it's a rabid dog.

Crazy Fucks

Downtown and Chinatown Honolulu are filled with clinically insane fucks. There are crazy homeless, driven to insanity by their own plight on the streets. There are crazy halfway house derelicts, their brains "fried" by drug overdose.

Then, there are crazy senior citizens, just like the ugly old skank causing trouble at the fast food joint in town. The ugly ho' would give anyone the "willies." Note the picture of the Venus of Willandorf, also known as "Willy." Senior citizens go berserk because they have run out of denials for their upcoming deaths. They become "Willy" and lose their minds.

All of these crazy fucks are deemed harmless. Not so, Moto! A good portion of the "normal" population are on psychotropic medication, the only reason they are "normal." Yet, "normal" people are also deemed harmless. Not so, Moto!

All of the crazy fucks listed, including so-called "normal" types, can lose it at any time. Best case scenario is suicide. Worst case scenario ... homicidal rampage. Thus, when "Donald" promises to "make empire great again," he's kidding himself and everyone else in empire. There are too many assholes and dickheads who preclude greatness. Empire is circling the toilet bowl like loose turds. The vortex will soon suck the shit down into the sewer and over to the sewage treatment plant. Game over!

Pre-diabetes

Pre-diabetes is a "pain in the ass." To be clear, pre-diabetes is a medical condition with its own classification, not just a symptom. Thus, any query about existing medical conditions will require a formal disclosure.

Living with pre-diabetes is, of course, no different than pre-pre-diabetes times (i.e., no medication). In fact, no change is really necessary until it's just too late. Taking pre-diabetes seriously, however, is all about anxiety.

People with pre-diabetes live from blood test to blood test. The interval of several months is one of pure uncertainty. Life-style and dietary revisions are unnerving and add to the uncertainty. Varying new symptoms may appear or disappear. All the while, there is no way to determine if any symptom is related to pre-diabetes or diabetes.

Actually, nearly any symptom or ailment can be attributed to pre-diabetes or diabetes. It's all about blood sugar or glucose. Too high, and the body goes berserk. Then, there's the matter of age. Senior citizens are more likely to develop full-blown diabetes as the body's normal functions begin to degenerate.

To summarize, pre-diabetes is a "pain in the ass" and a living hell. Anyone diagnosed with pre-diabetes should do everything possible to reduce blood sugar because diabetes is real hell with no way out.

Edging Toward Homelessness

As detailed in several earlier “tweets” in the current Twitter® feed, the ruse of homelessness can be accomplished by eliminating the so-called "paper trail," removing any record of a physical address, commuting in a vehicle that could be utilized as a homeless motorhome, and obtained homeless credentials. For what end, though?

The idea is not novel and was previously discussed in the "blog" ... use whatever means necessary to be admitted to a homeless shelter. Then, take full advantage of the housing programs offered by the shelters case workers. Both Scotty and my fomerly-homeless buddy used similar methodologies.

Going the traditional route (i.e., signing up on waiting lists) is futile. The waiting lists for State- or Federal-subsidized (Section8) housing is between six to ten years in the queue. And, the lists have been closed since September of last year.

Privately managed senior citizen housing is available (term used loosely). However, the rental rates are not low. Income requirements are usually three times the asking rents. So, that a big joke.

Hacked

Yahoo! Mail was hacked, not just once, but twice, over three years ago. However, Yahoo! was not forthcoming about the incidents until late last year. Hackers stole passwords, user account information, e-mail, and answers to security questions. Receiving a phishing e-mail with a spoofed address just a few days ago indicates that the hackers are actively seeking to gain access to user accounts that could reap big payoffs.

Enabling 2-factor authentication now is moot. The hackers have already stolen relevant information that could facilitate access to other accounts, particularly on-line banking. What's worse is that the perpetrators have had over three years to operate in stealth. What kind of shit is that?

Addendum: 2-factor authentication is a real pain the ass. Code is sent via SMS messaging and is used to enter site in addition to password.

Nissan® NV200 Cargo Van

The Nissan® NV200 cargo minivan should have been the candidate for homeless motorhome. The size is perfect. Cargo space is more than adequate for nightly lock-ins. No cargo area windows mean more stealth. Unfortunately, it was disqualified for purely vain reasons.

Nissan® NV200

Attempting to acquire an NV200 with a trade-in of the Nissan® Quest minivan may be too costly to consider. I would not doubt that a difference of at least $5,000 would have to be paid for a trade. Better to spend a fraction of that amount and have the Quest's rear windows tinted. The window deflectors could also be installed for a pittance.

And, the idea of putting a portable latrine in the NV200 may have been the latter's only advantage. However, the chemical or urine odors emanating from the portable latrine may be intolerable or a health hazard.

The Quest minivan will not be replaced at this point in time. Perhaps, an upper line model should have been purchased initially. All "water under the bridge" now.

Go Home!

For some strange reason, Scotty decided to share the way he obtained Section 8 Federal-subsidized housing. Not an easy task when following conventional means. Scotty is a member of the gym and a former homeless guy.

As a matter of fact, all waiting lists for Federal Section 8 and State-subsidized housing (including senior citizen housing) have been closed since September of last year. Scotty never signed up.

Scotty mentioned that he tried to persuade a 70-ish buddy of his to follow his method and get off the streets. His buddy had a bandage over one eye that day, apparently the result of some kind of altercation. Yet, even given the constant danger on the streets, Scotty's buddy did not want to follow any advice. He wanted to remain on the streets.

"There's a lot of people like that," Scotty said. "They want to stay on the streets." Why? "They don't want to go home," he replied. That's a profound answer. Why go home when there no reason to be there? Why rot away alone in a mausoleum?

Homeless Decision

The homeless decision has been postponed so many times that it sounds like the hollow campaign promises of most shady politicians. However, the homeless decision is a serious matter. Once the decision is made to "go motorhomeless," there's no turning back.

As discussed in a previous footnote, the homeless situation is dynamic, actually chaotic. The homeless situation worsens by the day, and increasing danger lurks on the streets. Actions by local authorities, businesses, and communities have made life difficult for the homeless and everyone else. Stigmatization of the homeless by local news media has only exacerbated the problem.

The sheer number of homeless on the streets is mind boggling. Many of them are clinically insane as well as impoverished. Unfortunately, the homeless prey on other homeless. They do not have the resources to prey on social classes above them. Thus, every homeless person is in constant danger.

That, of course, is the hindrance to the final homeless decision. Being motorhomeless does not insure safety. Rather, a homeless motorhome may be a magnet for homeless criminals as well as police and overzealous security guards.

A little over a year ago, a conventional minivan or automobile could suffice as a homeless motorhome. Stepping out in the middle of the night to "take a whiz" was no problem. Today, stepping out at night could be deadly. Thus, a cargo van or minivan with adequate space for a portable latrine is a prerequisite for motorhomelessness. There would be no need to exit the vehicle at any time at night.

Of course, there are myriad motorhomeless living out of conventional vehicles at this point in time. They may have scouted out a safe zone for the time being. Unfortunately, the homeless situation is always in flux. Anything can change at any time, and not for the better. Better safe, than sorry, though.

The Denial of Death

Ernest Becker's book, The Denial of Death, is paramount to understanding the human condition. Discussed previously in the old "blog," there is no need to rehash the subject. More relevant information is available from the Ernest Becker Foundation. Also, be sure to peruse the new Denial File.

Mission Statement: Established in 1993, the Ernest Becker Foundation advances understanding of how the unconscious denial of mortality profoundly influences human behavior. Ernest Becker laid the foundation for this work in his Pulitzer Prize-winning book The Denial of Death.

Family Issues

Family issues will not be discussed in the current Twitter® feed. Previous “tweets” falling in the latter category have already been deleted. Just know that dealings with the bro and his family have hit "rock bottom." Background information can be found in the old "blog" and legacy journal.

As a result of the dysfunction, visits with moms are now limited to one day per week at a maximum of two hours. No other details necessary. On a positive note, the newfound freedom from family ties is essentially an emancipation from bondage. That's cause for celebration!

Panda Express®

The pre-diabetes diagnosis has caused a major disruption in dietary patterns. Dinner venues were narrowed down to one choice: Panda Express® fast food. A fairly healthy dinner can be had for $9 or less. Consider that other fast food joints are offering 2 for $10 hamburger deals. Hamburgers? Not even close.

Mind you, not all Panda Express® entrées are created equal. Recommended dishes are: Mushroom Chicken, String Bean Chicken, Eggplant Tofu, Firecracker Chicken, Kung Pao Chicken, Beef Broccoli, Grilled Teriyaki Chicken (w/o sauce), along with brown rice and steamed vegetables combination. Other entrées are costlier, deep-fried, or has more simple carbohydrates.

The Panda Express® site has a fairly decent nutrition calculator to assist in planning somewhat healthy meals. Overall, Panda Express® seems to offer the best value and healthier alternative.

Formerly-Homeless Buddy

The formerly-homeless buddy (FHB), Hoang, officially retired from homelessness and active life a few months ago upon moving into low income senior citizen housing in Waialua. After 12 years of living out of a minivan, at the airport, and on the streets, FHB finally has a home.

Sadly, as chronicled in the "blog" and current Twitter® feed, the ill-gotten gains of FHB were acquired through welfare fraud and larceny. FHB is a criminal, and nothing can negate that fact. In essence, the taxpayers have paid for everything, from health insurance to rent for senior housing, and even the two houses he purchased in Vietnam (about US$70,000 each).

FHB has not been heard from in over a month. Hence, he is fully retired. Not seeing FHB around is no real loss. Actually, a blessing. There are many people who deserve to be helped, but no help is available because criminals like FHB have essentially stolen the funds. FHB will live a good life for free. He met and exceeded his goals.

Addendum: An earlier decision to delete all “tweets” referencing FHB on Twitter® was countermanded.

Homeless Situation

The homeless situation in Honolulu is out of control. There's no other way to state the obvious. There are so many homeless migrating here, mostly from the mainland empire. And, of course, the local authorities have no solutions. Relevant newsfeed articles have been posted in the Twitter® feed for clarification.

The gym in town, 24-Hour Fitness® Bishop, is looking more and more like a homeless hygiene center. Out of control. New homeless faces everywhere, usually making initial appearances at the gym, until the money runs low.

Various contacts have described how dangerous the streets have become for the homeless. They prey upon each other. So, there's just no safety in being out there alone. Out of control.

The local authorities are primarily concerned about semi-permanent "camps." The homeless sweeps have targeted the "camps." Dispersing the homeless only makes them more savvy at being invisible during daylight hours. Stealth homeless, by the way, are even more dangerous. Out of control.

In any case, the ridiculous homeless counts are totally inaccurate. The new homeless shelter policies, including the "Housing First" priority, are simply ludicrous. Shelters attempt to find "affordable" housing for the homeless within 90 days. They are given Aloha United Way rent subsidies for about a year. What happens after that? Probably back on the streets for those who cannot make up for lost subsidies.

Homelessness is an industry. It creates many useless jobs to service homeless clients. Housing initiatives are only "revolving door" solutions that rotate the homeless through temporary housing and the streets. On paper, the numbers suggest progress, which is good for obtaining government funding. That's really what the industry is all about.

Welcome!

Welcome to Exodus Footnotes! First off, this is not a "blog." Rather, consider the body of work to be footnotes to the existing Twitter® feed. The 140-character limit for individual "tweets" is limited. Therefore, footnotes will be appended here as deemed necessary.

Currently, there are no plans to include any image files in the footnotes. All images will be exclusive to the main Twitter® feed, unless an issue of utmost importance must be supplemented by an image. Images on the current Twitter® feed have been nearly exclusively limited to pictures of young hotties. There is no reasonable explanation for the phenomenon at this time.

The entire Twitter® feed has recently been revamped with many unnecessary "tweets" removed. Removal of unnecessary "tweets" will be on-going. A massive number of pictures and "selfies" of young hotties were moved forward to allow for indexing. However, a Twitter® search command was finally discovered that allowed for viewing of "tweets" beyond the default limit.

The current Twitter® feed will continue ad infinitum in lieu of the old "blog." With so little time left, there just is no reason to waste any of the precious limited resource on a ridiculous "blog" that no one reads.

Update: Twitter® feed was suspended in 2022 for “violations of terms of service.” Baha! Ha! Ha! Haaa!